Things I Wish You Said.

These are things I wish people had said to me when it mattered…. this can be from friends past and present, family, bullies, men, or anyone who ever crossed my path and left a mark in my life. The impact of these few words would be tremendous for someone like me. So it’s sad that I’ve rarely heard such sentiments. The fact these things most often have gone unsaid has broken me. A series of imperfect people in this imperfect world, neglecting to be kind or help at all with a sense of closure, have left open wounds all over my body and soul. I know life doesn’t always allow us closure…. but from guys disappearing from my life, to friends betraying and hurting me with no remorse, to nobody saying I mattered to them, to leaving it too late to say ‘I love you’ and never being able to hear it back, to being ripped away from someone I was attached to in therapy… it’s all too much. All I’ve ever wanted was ONE person to prove that there can be a good ending in life. After too much of it I put my final faith in therapy, thinking they’d help me do this. They did not. It was a missed opportunity. So I struggle on with life, awaiting the next hurt, the next betrayal, the next loss, knowing I will never hear a single one of the things I need to hear in order to heal….

 

• I’ll never forget you. I’ll always remember you.
• Your friendship means / meant a lot to me.
• I’m glad to have known you.
• I miss you / I’ll miss you.
• I’m sorry. What I did was wrong. Please forgive me.
• I love you.
• I care about you / worry about you.
• I value you.
• You’re special.
• You’re beautiful.
• I couldn’t live without you.
• You’ve give me such lovely memories.
• I’m flattered you feel that way for me.
• You deserve better than me.
• Is there anything you want to say or to ask me?
• I lied to you. I lied about you. I’m sorry.
• I was selfish. I’m sorry.
• I let you down. I’m sorry.
• You have every right to hate me.
• I trust you.
• I admire you.
• You matter to me.
• You’re not a burden, and I’ll kick the ass of anyone who makes you think that!
• Thank you for everything you do and for being you.
• I believe in you. I have faith in you.
• I’m proud of you.
• I have your back.
• I don’t want to lose you.
• I’m not going to leave you.
• Nothing changes how I feel about you.
• You’re a good person.
• You mean the world to me.
• I’m so lucky to have you.
• I will help you through this. You’ve got me on your side, we’ll do this together.
• Your feelings matter most to me.
• I had feelings for you too.
• I made a mistake.
• I never wanted to hurt you.
• Losing you was painful for me.
• I wish I could undo what I did.
• You didn’t deserve that.
• I wish we could have had our chance.
• I wish I’d met you sooner.
• You make me happy.
• I want you to be happy.
• You deserve to experience love. I hope you’ll find it soon.
• I understand you.
• I want to understand you.
• I want to learn everything about you.
• Tell me how you’re feeling…
• It’s okay that you feel that way.
• You’re not alone.
• I wish you well.
• Goodbye.